The bonds

Dulu-dulu, punya la banyak angan-angan kan. Cita-cita kononnya, yang tak kesampaian. Wohoo sedih ke statement itu? Ouh!

1. Saya nak jadi doctor, sebab boleh rawat mak ayah saya bila diaorang sakit nanti.

[habis, pesakit lain, kau tak nak rawat?]

2. Saya nak jadi pilot, sebab nanti boleh bawak mak ayah saya terbang ke mana sahaja mereka suka.

[kalau saudara jauh yang lain, boleh join tak?]

3. Saya nak jadi architect supaya saya boleh design rumah yang cantik-cantik untuk mak ayah saya.

[design rumah kedai boleh? hoho]

4. etc.

So I nak cakap dekat sini yang, Our world revolve around our parents. Apa-apa pun, ibu bapa kita. So We should not forget them in any way especially their deeds. And of course, we should not forget our Creator also. Sometimes we may have said things we should have said and it end up hurting our parents dalam sedar ataupun tidak.

taken from : theallaroundmom.info

Bila sudah meningkat dewasa ni, ada masa I mengimbas balik zaman kecil-kecil dulu, I banyak sakitkan hati parents I, family I yang lain. Walaupun I tak berniat sebegitu. Maybe I just want their attention towards me. But instead I gain it by using the lefting the negative perception of them towards me. Still they love me even more, because Im their only daughter. I seldomly saw my brother got scolded by my parents so I thought they love him more than they love me. What a stupid presumption I made. God knows that my parents scolded him behind my back because they don't want to leave the negative impression of my brother on me or that I will view as if my brother can do that stupid bad stuff, so can I. 

Masa kecil. I tak paham semua tu. But I began to understand those things now. Things that left unsaid by my parents. To think how stupid I was to behave like that for not understanding the true intention of my parents. I am no longer scared of my past even though at times i tried to run from it. Maybe Im not truly get over it yet. But I will soon.. 

And ya, saya sangat la utama kan family saya. And kadang-kadang kawan saya pun annoyed with me sebab mana-mana nak pergi (ie: pantai ke, shopping ke etc) I kena bagitahu my parents dulu. And if red light from them, means, I tak dapat la join.

Berapa orang pergi, naik apa, nak beli apa, dengan siapa, siapa drive, Perlu ke barang tu.. etc.. semua kena bagitahu my mum dulu. Overprotective? Not for me. If diaorang jenis tak kisah, Okay, itu saya akan pelik. Nanti I will think yang diaorang dah tak pedulikan saya lagi. And I prefer this way. So that I will always know my priority is on what.

Now I just want to make my parents proud and I will try slowly to improve myself to become a better person and sebagai muslimah yang cukup bekalannya. Tapi macam mana nak tahu bekalan kita tu cukup ke tidak? Well, only Tuhan yang tahu kan. Still, I hanyalah manusia biasa. Hari ni ingat, esok lupa balik. Tapi I harap, I tak salah landasan.

Amin

I love my parents + my along + my bubble so much. Thanks for always give me strength when Im at the lowest. Thanks for cheering me up when Im down. Thanks for always being patient with me. I know I am annoying at times, or most of the times. Haha. Hope that our bond will last even after death.